Breaking Rules

Some scenes are not for young and close-minded readers. This chapter has some sexual harassment scenes. *** Truth on what he said. Even though I can’t see him, I have a feeling that he is just around the place. Yes, our paths never crossed after that incident in the girl’s restroom. But I know he was just there, watching me from afar. My fear that I’m feeling for him doesn’t even wither, and as time goes on, it just gets worse. My eyes widened when I saw him walking all alone on the path where I’m going. We were inside the main library of our university. I was just at the entrance when I saw him. He was wearing his usual buttoned-down white long sleeve polo that was tucked in on his black trouser. His gold watch was proudly showing on his right pulse. It’s visible since the sleeve of what he was wearing is folded into his elbow. Every girl is watching him. Adoringly looking at him like he’s their prince charming that goes down fabulously on his horse. He was holding three books in his left hand while the other is inside his pocket. A lot pair of eyes are watching him closely. I guess, he is known here at San Albereda University. I stopped walking and bowed my head down. I was confused and didn’t know what to do. I swallowed and immediately went to the side as he walked in my direction. I was so nervous as I prayed that he wouldn’t gonna notice me. But he stopped right in front of me. He was still looking straight on his path. He’s not even looking at my side but here I am feeling so nervous and feeling like fainting by just the thought of him here in my front. I gulped again and simply gazed at him like a kid. My hair almost covered my entire face. “Good girl, Sera …” just that, and he left me dumbfounded.  Good girl? I stood up properly as I adjusted my glass. Fortunately, the other students didn’t notice what he just said to me.  The day passed and I don’t know if I was unlucky or if we were it’s fate that always makes our paths cross again. I was at the end of the main library, so busy looking for a book to read when I accidentally saw him leaning on the same shelf where I am finding a book. And he seemed to have strong instincts because he suddenly looked at me. My eyes widened in shock. His cold eyes raked on me. Giving me some chills. Moments later the side of his lips rose. He was reading a book in his hands earlier, but he lowered it when he suddenly saw me. I can feel myself shaking as I looked at him. As always when I see him, his face doesn’t even have any emotions. I took a deep breath as he began to walk closer to me. And god, he was only a few feet away from me.  He smirked, even more, when he was already in front of me. Out of my mind, I leaned against the shelf of the books. The space between the shelves is wide but I feel like it’s cramped now that he’s in front of me. Because he is already towering over me. He’s too tall, that my height only reached his shoulders.  The fear I felt for him rose again. And I know that he can feel it, and by just looking at my transparent emotions. “You’ve been a good girl, amore.”  He bent down to match my face. He raised one hand to the side of my face while the other rose to my cheek. Caressing it so gently. But his hand traveled down my neck. My chest heaved a sigh. He was looking at me intently using his coldest and darkest gray eyes. He licked his lips and smirked again.  “But you’re avoiding me, hmm?” I bit my lip for no apparent reason. He looked down at it and I saw something flicked in his eyes. Something like hunger. He looked back at my neck which was covered by his hand. And moments later, I can feel his grip tightening around it. The tightness of his grip was just right for me to breathe. But I felt out of the air because of him. I can see his jaw clenching as if he’s holding back on something.  “Fuck, Sera! I want to fucking kill you. I want to strangle your neck,” what he said gives me chills. The next thing I knew, he pulled me closer to him. His hands are already on my hips. Another emotion can be seen in his eyes. I was just surprised when I felt his hand on my thigh. Later on, I saw myself tangled in him. My thighs are already on his waist, hugging it. He suddenly pushed me against the shelves, another book fell there. My faint cry was trapped in his palms as he put it in my mouth. Telling me to stay quiet. I can see how he clenched his haw again. “Damn it, girl. You’re one of a hell’s temptations.”  Even though I was scared, I couldn’t get rid of the strange feeling he made me feel. He brought his face close to mine, I can feel his hot breathing fanning on my face. He bit his lips when he looked at my eyes. “Why do your lips so forbidden, huh? You look so forbidden.” I thought that he’s gonna kiss me but instead, his lips went to my cheeks. Give some butterfly kisses. He sighed and continued kissing me, trying to avoid my lips.  “Ahh …” I moaned softly as his kiss fell on my neck. I also feel something soft and warm there. He was gently kissing and sucking my neck like it was his favorite dessert. I tugged at his hair as his kiss went down even more. Went to my collarbone, making me feel so hot. He rested one hand on the shelf while the other is on my thigh.  “Hmm,” he bit my skin which made me moan again. These things felt very dangerous.  I know that it was wrong but I couldn’t stop him. I was under his spell. His hand on my thighs started to roam around. He was caressing my thighs gently. I unconsciously combed his hair which made him groan.  “Fuck it,” until he cupped my butt. That’s when I came back to my senses, I pushed him away. He slowly lowered me down. I caught my breath and was unable to look at him.  I was so ashamed of what happened, I should’ve stopped him but I didn’t. Tears welled up in my eyes but I immediately wiped them and adjusted my glasses.  “Don’t shed a tear on me when you moaned while I was kissing you,” he said in his raspy voice.  He approached me again and pressed his body to mine. “Amore, I like it when you’re nervous like this on me. It’s making me want you more … making … me … to strangle your neck … more.”  My lips parted at what he said. “N-No, p-please …”  He chuckled in my ear, my hair stood on end again. Something tickles my stomach.  “This is not the last, Sera …” he looked at me. His face is an inch away from mine. “I know you like my kisses, even if you’re scared of me, you like it so much.” My eyes widened at what he said. What is he saying? I shook my head at him but he just smiled. Then his lips slowly went down again on my neck. He kisses it while still looking at me. Until he gently bit the skin, my breath got heavier again.  I immediately pushed him because of nervousness. “D-Don’t …” He licked his lips, I was about to speak again when I heard some footsteps. I just quickly left without looking at him again. My breathing pattern is still heavy. As I walked, it kept coming back to my mind what had happened earlier. I felt so stupid letting him do that to me. I shouldn’t have let him. That’s wrong, we shouldn’t have done that. I’m really stupid. Besides, I was relieved when I got home to the apartment. I just wish that our paths will never cross again. I’m scared of him, that’s the truth. I know, he was not just a normal student at our university. I don’t know if people also noticed it or not. His every word felt so true. I’m a gullible one, I’m just a kid, I already know about that habit of mine. But I know, his words are true. That when he says he can kill me, I can feel it. He could do that, I just don’t know where I got that thought. I sighed, I should’ve not thought about him. Azi barked at me as I got home from San Albereda University. I was delighted when he spun around me, so I picked him up. I placed my bag on the small couch and sit there. I caressed his fur. Azi is a cute Siberian husky and a playful puppy. But I can deal with that. As long as he’s here with me, I’m totally fine with his behavior. My phone beeped, I immediately get it from my bag to read the text. It was from the manager of the club. From: Manager

Good day, are you going to work? To: Manager

Yes, ma’am. I’ll just ready my things. From: ManagerContent (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

Okay. I gently placed Azi on the floor first and let him fidget. I started preparing gear, I just wore a black long sleeve and leggings that I paired with white rubber shoes. I saw Azi looking at me while wagging his tail. I smiled and pat his head. I fed him first before I left the apartment. My bike is already fixed, so I used that to go to the club. When I entered the club, everybody is busy. I even saw the manager, she looks a little bit frantic. I was just about to go to the employees’ lockbox when Señora Vetrua called me. She immediately walked toward me. My forehead creased when she pulled me into her office. “I’m sorry to drag you in this, Seraphine. I know you don’t want this kind of work but I really need your help.” I frowned again at what she said. What does she mean? “If it’s okay with you, can you be a waitress even just for tonight? There are a lot of customers tonight, there are some absent employees.” My lips parted and shook my head. “M-M-Ma’am, y-y-y-you k-know my c-c-condition.” “Yes, I know, I know, you don’t have to speak. You just give them the orders,” I nodded at her and smiled. Señora Vetrua screamed in glee that made me smile even more. As if she were a child who was allowed to buy a toy by her parents. She gave me a uniform for a waitress. I went to the bathroom of her office to change my uniform. I bit my lower lip as I tried to pull the hem of the black skirt. I’m wearing a short black skirt and white polo long sleeves, overlaid with a black vest. I’m not used to wearing short clothes so I tried to pull them down. The skirt is above the knee but I’m still not comfortable wearing that. I used to wear long dresses, not like this. I feel like someone could peep on me with this attire. I sighed in dismay. I saw a full-length mirror in our Manager’s office, I walk towards it. I untied my hair and let it down on my shoulders. My natural brown hair is a little bit wavy. I fixed my eyeglasses before I smiled at my manager who was just looking at me. I went out of her office before going to the bar counter. I was instantly greeted by a bartender there. “Are you going to replace a waitress, Seraphine?” I just nodded softly before picking up the tray with only glasses of refined wine. Nervously, I started to roam around the place. This club is decent, not like the other clubs selling girls or what. Unlike other clubs that only work with naked women dancing sexily on the stage. This club is just like a bar, well, the only difference is that this club entertains. They offer some escorts but it was just only for VIP members. I don’t know the other details. They said the details were too private, that would only be known if I was one of the escorts. Señora Vetrua once offered me the ‘escort’ job but I turned the offer down. Apart from being afraid of what kind of ‘escort’ is not possible because of my condition. I was just thankful that she didn’t force me. I spent a few hours wandering around. It was okay, just a little bit tiring since a lot of customers are ordering. There are indeed a lot of customers tonight, there are more people now, most are students. That seems to be triple the regular number of customers we have every night. I quickly placed the order at a certain table. Most are men but there were other women too. They look like a group of friends. And I was about to leave when someone grabs my pulse. I looked at the person who grabbed my pulse and I saw a guy my age, he looks drunk. He seemed to be out of his mind. I looked at his other colleague. Some of them are busy, I even saw some of them kissing a girl while the others are looking at us. They are smirking. As if they were going to do something to me that I wouldn’t like. I trembled with fear. I tried to get away but the guy didn’t let me. That even though I slapped his hand he still didn’t move a single muscle. His grip on me only tightened. Trembling welled up in my chest, I was scared too. I want to scream but I don’t want to make a scene here. “Miss, I wanna order something …” I gasped when he pulled me to sit on his lap. I tried to get away from sitting on his lap but he held me tight. “… can I order you, baby?” I was stunned when his hands reach my legs, caressing them and trying to sneak on my skirt. The caress of his hand went to the side and slipped into my skirt. I held my breath and burst into tears. I felt so harassed with his rough hands on my bare skin. I cried, even more, when he started kissing my neck. And his hand moves more and more on my thighs. His hand is almost reaching my womanhood when someone suddenly punched him. Without even thinking, I rapidly getaway while crying. Tears never stopped flowing in my eyes. I could barely breathe. I saw someone punching the man who molested me. His every punch screams madness. Someone tried to stop them, but they just got into trouble. I don’t know what to do. And I don’t know what went through my mind when I approached the man. “S-S-Stop, p-please,” I said softly to the man. I thought he was not gonna listen to me but a miracle happened, and he stops. His breathing is fast, he looks so mad as if he could kill anyone. The rise and fall of his chest is an indication that he is furious. I saw the bouncer coming to us. I also saw our manager. My tears are still falling from my eyes, I can even hear my sobs because the music suddenly stopped. The man pushed me closer to him. He let me look at him, and I saw a pair of gray eyes. His eyes are full of rage and unknown emotions. He has some bruises on his cheeks. But I bet it’s not from the fight earlier. And to my surprise, he was the guy that I’m always scared of. “Fuck that fucker,” he just said and pulled me into a hug. I gripped his shirt and cried. I felt him hug me tighter. I can still hear my sobs when I heard our manager ask. “What happened here?” I immediately get away from the man and went to the manager. “H-He h-h-h-harassed me,” I pointed to the man who had molested me earlier that was now bruised all over his face. I saw him stand up, he glared at me. “She fucking seduced me. That slut is at fault.” “Fuck you, you fucking harassed her. Damn you, I’m going to fucking kill you!” The man next to me would have punched the guy if I haven’t stopped him. I saw him grit his teeth. He was trying to stop himself from punching the guy. Señora Vetrua looked at us, she sighed. “Leave first, Seraphina. I’ll take care of it, calm down him first.” I nodded at her. The person next to me wouldn’t have wanted to leave if I hadn’t just pulled him away from that situation. We went to a near convenience store. I let him sit down at one of the tables there. I buy a first aid kit to treat some of his bruises. I immediately went back to him when I had bought everything I need. I arranged everything on the table. I removed my eyeglasses and looked at him. I studied his face. From his creasing forehead to his tensed jaw. Even though I felt scared, I tried to set aside what I’m feeling. I was still scared of him but I had to forget that, even if he really looks furious right now. I also remember what happened to us earlier in the library, I quickly wiped it out from my mind. I hesitantly smiled at him, still trembling as I looked at him. He looks rough and strict. He screams authority. He’s the definition of a man that you can’t easily undermine. I smiled at him again despite the fear I felt. But instead of smiling back at me, he just looked at me coldly. I can see from his eyes that he is mad. I swallowed, I just showed him the cotton buds with betadine. I thought he would avoid it but no, he just let me treat his wounds. I gently touched his cheek, lip, and forehead with the cotton buds. He is just watching me all along, and my hands trembled a little bit. I stopped when I couldn’t bear his stare at me. I met his gaze. But I shifted in my seats when he looked at me darkly. I cleared my throat and averted my gaze. I took the bandaid and put it on his forehead. Not on my mind, smiled, I blew on the bandaid and caressed it. But I immediately stopped when I realized what I did. My hand shook and bowed my head in embarrassment. I placed my hands on the table while still looking down. Why did I do that? I closed my eyes in embarrassment. That was a wrong move. I heard him breathe harshly. I slowly looked at him. His hands on the table are balled into a fist. My stare went up to see his face. I saw his hawk gray eyes, I can see the rage on him. He still doesn’t seem to calm down, eh? I quickly averted my gaze as he turned to look at me. “Damn it,” I saw him stand up. I thought he was going to leave when he spoke again.  

I held my breath as he approached me. “Let’s go …” I shivered when I heard his low but cold voice I got up quickly, he came out of the convenience store first. I just followed him. He noticed that I’m just following him, so he stopped and grabbed my pulse. My eyes grew wider and just let him pull me somewhere. I want to ask but I can’t. Besides being ashamed of my situation, I was also afraid of him. We rode in a black car. He even put a seatbelt on me. We were just silent all the time. I can see him gripping the steering wheel of the car. I guess, he really can’t calm down until now. We stopped for a moment. I noticed that we were on the opposite side of my apartment. Then I remembered my bike and bag, I didn’t bring them. I looked at him and saw that he was also looking at me. I stared at him for a moment and then slowly looked at him as we passed. And I think he understands what I meant because I see him clench his jaw. “Are you kidding me? You were harassed there, then you wanted to go back? Fuck,” he even slammed the steering wheel which made me wink. He sighed before pulling his car and going back to the club. We soon arrived. I was embarrassed to speak so I just held his hand that was holding the steering wheel tightly, it was a sign of my gratitude. I felt him stir when I caressed his hands. He looked at me, I smiled at him before going out of his car. Before entering the club, I can feel my heart beating so fast, not from the nervousness but from what I did earlier. Why did I do that?