Sold to my crush

Lily’s POV

“Who did this to you?”. He asked giving me a cold hard look.

I guess all of my fears were coming to pass.

I held onto the sheets tightly as I turned away from Alex, hiding my face from him.

“Why didn’t you tell me that such a thing happened to you?”. Alex barked out.

“Maybe I should been like ‘oh hey, Alex I’ve been abused’. Just like that?”. I scoffed. “It’s not exactly something I advise or go around telling strangers.” I defended myself.

I felt the bed dip and his scent enveloped my nostrils signaling that he had sat on the bed.

“Look at me Lily.” He gripped my chin and turned me so I could see his face, despite my resistance.

“I just need to know who did this to you. Please don’t cry”. He said more softly as he wiped the tears that spilled uncontrollably from my eyes.

“Yeah, Sure”. I bit back. I don’t know why I was being a bitch to him but I couldn’t help it. I just had so much anger in me. I was just so angry at the world.

“Strangers hmm?”. He huffed and relaxed slightly on the bed rest. “Yeah, I suppose we’re strangers”. He paused and sighed before lifting me up and putting me in a sitting position so I was facing him. ” I suppose we should eradicate that”.

“H… how?”. I asked more softly in sheer confusion.

“What would you like to know about me?”. Alex asked softly with a small smile that was almost invisible.

I stared at him in shock and awe for a while trying to fathom why he was doing this. “How old are you?”. I asked quietly after a while of thinking of the things that I wanted to know.

“Twenty four.” He replied causally.

I gulp, he’s six years older than me. “How come you…”

“How come we finished school the same time?”. He chuckled. “Well all thanks to my father who delayed my entry into school”.

“But why?”. I asked curiously.

“That’s a story for another day”. He responded to me with his eyes that looked faraway in thought.

“Okay”. I shrugged. If he did not want to tell me now then it’s fine. I guess I’ll wait till whenever, after all it’s not everyday that I and Alex sit together and chat like new lovers on a first date.

“Can I ask another question?”. I asked cautiously seeing as he still looked distant. His jaws and fists were clenched and it seemed that whatever it was that he was remembering was not pleasant.

“Sure”. He responded as he snapped out of his daze.

“Why did you actually agree to this marriage?, what exactly is in for you cause it doesn’t make any sense. For one I can say that I agreed because of the money my family needed but for you I can’t seem to understand why”. I asked him the question that I’ve always wanted to know the answer to.

Alex smiled grimly. “Even I do not know. I guess I’m just a pawn in my father’s game”. He responded in low tone.

His father’s game?, what the hell was going on in this family.

He rubs my cheek softly as if sensing my confusion to his response. “One day, I’ll tell you everything and then it’ll all make sense”. He patted my head before dropping his hand back on his thighs.

“Anymore questions?, this aside of course”. He asked with a laugh.Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

I thought about any other thing for while before shaking my head no. “Do you have any?”. I asked him.

“I think you know exactly what I want to ask”. He said softly.

“Yeah, I guess”. I looked away.

“It’s alright if you don’t want to talk about it now. Take your time”. He reassured me softly.

“It all began after the death of my mother”. I Sadie after a while of silence. I might as well just tell him everything. I can’t keep running away from it. Alex already hates me and is already aware of the abuse so just giving him the full gist won’t kill me after all.

“Are you sure”. He asked. I wonder why he was being too nice and caring, perhaps it was out of pity.

I responded with a gentle nod before I continued speaking. “I had just returned back from school and I rushed into my brother’s room to tell him all about my day as usual.”

I turned away from Alex as I stifled a sob that threatened to escape and then I felt Alex’s hand squeezing mine in comfort.

“I began talking about everything that happened in school that day and next thing I knew we were talking about my crush.” I said with a laugh as I remembered how enthusiastic I was that day to tell Chase everything that day.

“Funny enough, I was telling him about you”. He joined me as I lightly chuckled.

“I had always told him about this crush you know, countless times and he would always get upset and forcefully change the subject to something else. I never for once thought much about it cause I felt it was just a normal reaction from an overprotective elder brother who never wants to hear his sister talk about a guy talk more of seeing her with someone. If only that was the case.” I gulped.

“You can always stop if you’re not ready yet.” Alex reassured me after he noticed my hesitance as I had been silent for a while.

“I’m fine”. I brushed him off. “So on this certain day, I began telling him of my crush and as usual he got upset and warned me never to bring any guy up again.”

I sniffled and tried steady my shaky voice. “I obliged and we went onto another subject entirely, Suddenly my brother Chase, started saying a whole lot of things. He said he loved me so much but not as a sister and he would want us to be together as lovers”.

“What?!!.” Alex roared. “Is he crazy?, why would even think of such a thing”. He sprang up fuming.

“Please let me finish. If I don’t then I don’t think I could ever have the courage to do it again”. I pleaded.

He apologized and sat down back, then gestured for me to continue. ” I was in utter shock then and I immediately rejected him cause obviously that was wrong and I did not see him that way.” I sniffled “but now that I think about it maybe I should have just accepted him.”

“Don’t say that please”. Alex said.

I ignored him and continued. “Chase got so angry, I guess he couldn’t handle the rejection and he beat me up and rained insults on me. I thought that was all until he…” the fucking damn broke and i cried and wailed bitterly as I recalled that day.

Alex looked torn and confused as he did not know how else to comfort me. “It was my first time that day. I was a virgin. He knew that but he did not care as he took my dignity and my will. I begged and pleaded with him but he just rammed into me ruthlessly. I was in so much pain but not for once did he mind”.

I felt Alex tense up at my confession. “I wonder if the rest of my family heard my voice that day and refused to help me.”

“Ever since then it became his ritual. Whenever he was mad or just because he wanted to, he would just come into my room beat me up and use my body for his pleasure”.

My voice broke and I couldn’t talk anymore. I just cried and cried. Alex pulled me closer into a hug. He rubbed my back soothingly as he whispered sweet nothings and reassuring words to me and let me cry out my eyes.